Hardest Job in the World

Being a parent was something I never asked for. It fell into my lap through a momentary lapse of wits. However, I have since learned it is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, yet provides the greatest benefit in return. I only hope that I can hold up to the expectation I have of myself in raising my son.

When he came into my life I was still very young and immature. It all feels like a whirlwind looking back now. I have not always been 'present' to enjoy his childhood. I regret that. And I truly hope that I change that for both of us. I don't want to look back when he has moved on into his own adult life and feel as if I missed so much. I already have missed too much while sorting through my own deficiencies.

Now that I have overcome so many hurdles, my goal is to focus on becoming a true mother. Not just a caretaker. I pray I have the energy left to do so.